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Beyond the Sea
September 2012


Vacant Possession

Anne Fitzgerald

ISBN: 978-1-910669-97-6

Page Count: 146

Publication Date: Thursday, November 09, 2017

Cover Artwork: In the Rain (1999), oil on canvas, 60 x60 cm, signed, Pearson. Reproduced by kind permission of the artist Peter Pearson RHA. Photograph courtesy of James Adam & Sons, Fine Art Auctioneers & Valuers.

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About this Book

‘Is there a poet writing in Ireland who feels so profoundly and knows more surely love's obsessions, its piercing chronicles, its succour and sorrows than Anne Fitzgerald? The poems in Vacant Possession char the page, leaving their imprint, imperishable, unique.’

Frank McGuinness


‘Raw, poignant, wrenching, and deeply courageous, this beautiful collection of poetry took my breath away. Each poem is a gift, wrapped in luminous, lyrical verse. Standing firmly in her own truth, Fitzgerald takes us on a tour de force of the human condition, the search for self, and Ireland’s shameful treatment of the unmarried mother and her child. As an adoptee, I wept many times as I read this stunning collection, but it is the universality of these devastating poems that grants them their power. Fearless, Fitzgerald takes us on a journey of love, loss, death, abandonment and grief. Despite the inherent pain in these poems, she never surrenders to self-pity. With near-invisible artistry, Fitzgerald weaves agonizing loss into redemptive power and ensures that love breathes on every page.’

Caitriona Palmer 
Author of An Affair with my Mother (Penguin)


Author Biography

Anne Fitzgerald was raised in Sandycove, County Dublin. She is a graduate of Trinity College, Dublin and Queen’s University, Belfast. Her poetry collections are Swimming Lessons (Wales, Stonebridge, 2001), The Map of Everything (Dublin, Forty Foot, 2006) and Beyond the Sea (Co. Clare, Salmon Poetry, 2012). 
In 2006 Anne founded Forty Foot Press, in addition to two School Publishing Houses, Monkstown Educate Together Press (MET Press, 2003) and Loreto Abbey Dalkey Press (LAD Press, 2004). She is a recipient of the Ireland Fund of Monaco Writer-in-Residence bursary at The Princess Grace Irish Library, Monaco. She teaches Creative Writing in Ireland and North America. Anne lives in Dún Laoghaire, County Dublin. 
For biography visit Forty Foot Press at www.fortyfootpress.com/anne-fitzgerald.html and on Facebook see www.facebook.com/FortyFootPress.2006/


Read a sample from this book

Anticipation 

From afar it comes like the smell of rain 
in off the sea, with an urgency of waves 
breaking, you weaken at the thought 
of it happening again, as naturally as heat 
making its presence felt on the globe 
of your palms, you spread your fingers 
wide as water between two bodies 
of land, trace boundaries, sea stacks ‘n’ coves 
on the bend of where paradise might 
be. Your judgement clouds like a compass 
that’s let moisture in, devoid of magnetic 
field you falter, give way to the rhythm 
of waves as though sirens in pursuit of kelp 
and driftwood like lovers on a beach. 




Finding Myself in Werburgh Street 

In the diocese of Dublin and Glendalough 
up along Dame Street, past the Olympia  

and Dublin Castle, in earshot of Christchurch 
bells, Werburgh Street Church stands above 

Lord Edward Fitzgerald’s vault, atop of   
Swift’s baptismal font, not a stone’s throw 

from where birth and death records lie, 
like coordinates to be plotted, half-truths 

waiting to be lies on deValera 
and McQuaid’s map of cardinal truths.

I take down oversized red bound birth 
books for 1965 in the records room, 

turn pages heavy with births from Skull, 
Mizen and Hook Heads to Sheep’s Hollow

beyond boarder crossings, flyover latitudes,
boreen longitudes and oyster beds where sand 

and grit form pearls under blatherwrack, 
an irritant stuck inside the oyster’s body

swaying to salt making free with buoyancy 
around the Ring of Kerry and Cliffs of Moher

as I run my finger across districts and parishes: 
Annagor, Belmullet, Cahir, and Drumcondra 

the Swine of Pigs, in the diocese of Clonturk 
where real fiction lives. Though not the Book 

of Kells, it illuminates a pentimento of fibs, 
stretching back to the foundations of belief.

Not five minutes shy of two hours I lean into 
a past of myself, as unrecognisable as a wild 

pearl, iridescent and luminous as the shell itself 
or my fingerprint smudged. Reading my birth 

name given is like a foreign language forged 
in copperplate, a kind of twisted mother-tongue 

as if finding the needle, without eye or haystack, 
purposefully sent to hit a dead end by the grace 

and blessings of the Archbishop’s handmaidens. 
Without Theseus thread of Adriane, nurse Gallagher 

cuts the chord, registers me by her own hand, 
every slope and ink incline a natural fabrication  

of this twenty-six year old’s maiden name, who 
didn’t comfort me as my first tooth breaks through, 

hold me at night as my breath is given over to 
coughing for the loss of you, or watch me not fall 

down as one foot follows the other in a gait you’d 
half recognise disappearing into a crowd years later.

Instead you commend me into the geometry of a life 
you’d not foresee. All the while, wondering from a distance.



Getting Ready 

Go to Shaws for white sheets, 
Egyptian cotton, a high thread 

count mind, to lay me out. 
Use candles in that bottom 

drawer, John  XX111 thrice
blessed, making a bishop 

of Tom Ryan back in ’63.
Light them so I will find 

my way through d’eye 
of the needle, ease tight

squeeze, deaden clamouring 
at the gates. Let me pass 

without incident for what 
I have left unresolved. 


Poems © Copyright Anne Fitzgerald 2017


Reviews

Review: Vacant Possession reviewed by  Hélène Cardona for Pratik: A Magazine of Contemporary Writing

 

Soul retrieval, deep healing


    Anne Fitzgerald’s recent collection Vacant Possession (Salmon Poetry) is exquisitely crafted, a beautiful, heartbreaking and haunting read, which begs revisiting time and again. It opens with a stunning, hypnotic love poem which casts a spell and sets the tone, for this is, above else, a book about love:


          Anticipation 


          From afar it comes like the smell of rain

          in off the sea, with an urgency of waves

          breaking, you weaken at the thought

          of it happening again, as naturally as heat

          making its presence felt on the globe

          of your palms, you spread your fingers

          wide as water between two bodies

          of land, trace boundaries, sea stacks ‘n’ coves

          on the bend of where paradise might

          be your judgement clouds like a compass

          that’s let moisture in, devoid of magnetic

          field you falter, give way to the rhythm

          of waves as though sirens in pursuit of kelp

          and driftwood like lovers on a beach.

    In poems about redemption and a love that transcends all, Fitzgerald works to reconcile the world she knew with the world she lives in. She writes about finding her compass, her mother, her identity. From “Finding Myself in Werburgh Street”:


          Without Theseus thread of Adriane, nurse Gallagher


          cuts the chord, registers me by her own hand,

          every slope and ink incline a natural fabrication


          of this twenty-six year old’s maiden name, who

          didn’t comfort me as my first tooth breaks through,


          hold me at night as my breath is given over to

          coughing for the loss of you, or watch me not fall


          down as one foot follows the other in a gait you’d

          half recognise disappearing into a crowd years later.


          Instead you commend me into the geometry of a life

          you’d not foresee, all the while, wondering from a distance.


And from “Bellybutton”:


          my first breath-cry


          clouds windows,

          lines my lungs


          with a dampness

          my breathing


          will carry like

          the pain of arrival


          and your departure

          into thin air


          born like the memory

          of mist falling


          on bracken,

          suspending disbelief,


          my innie pit

          our belly to belly


          chord leaves,

          is all that


          remains

          of our attachment.

    When witnessing her mother’s death, she mourns, “When whiteness does hold / the world as I know it is no more.” … “a blizzard / of disbelief / whitens my / world as / I knew it.”


    The triumph of Vacant Possession is that Fitzgerald, against all odds, deftly and with unparalleled grace, rediscovers and repossesses the lost parts of herself. For this is poetry as shamanic work, soul retrieval, deep healing and testimony, as well as a searing indictment of a society where mothers and their children born out of wedlock have been prey at the hands of the Catholic Church.


    Fitzgerald conducted astounding research. To quote her postscript, “From engagement with various State and Church agencies together with research conducted I can confirm that Éire’s Architecture of Containment thrives in matters pertaining to the release of Adoption Records in Twenty-First Century Ireland. A trinity of control and culpability pervades within the Catholic Church, the Irish Free State and its Religious Institutions specifically established to contain, to profit from and to manage the lives of those who bore children outside marriage and the little lives born outside of the bands of holy matrimony.”


    At once lyrical and precise, Vacant Possession stands as witness, a heartfelt tribute to her mother and to all who underwent such fates. This is a powerful and necessary collection on the human condition that everyone needs to read. 




Review: Vacant Possession reviewed by Rick Larios for The Manhattan Review

 “The past is never dead. It’s not even past.”
                 —William Faulkner, Requiem for a Nun

Vacant Possession, Fitzgerald’s fourth collection, is a subtle yet compelling narrative suite in four distinct parts. The narrative arc is implicit, not one of telling, but one of recognition of continuity and connection—between desire and consequence, between morality and hypocrisy, between family and politics, between youthful self and adult self, between understanding and outrage. The poems start with human longing for love, sex, relationships in part I; shifts to parental loss and its complex impacts and revelations regarding family in part II; then to institutional trust and betrayal in part III that is consequent of the sin of desire from the opening section, and a final poem, a requiem of witness for those who were separated from their birth mothers, like the poet was, by the Irish Catholic Church, is part IV. 

The lover in the collection’s first poem, “Anticipation,” feels the familiar pangs of desire arriving “like the smell of rain / … as naturally as heat / making its presence felt on the globe / of your palms.” The person who experiences these pangs is the poet—though described by the second person singular: you, your—she and everyone who has ever felt the insistent tug of romantic longing. The subject(s)—she, you, we—of “Anticipation” is us. We’ll learn as we read, that the poet is also the product of such an urgent act, but then so are we. She will also be the daughter caring for her declining mother in the second part, and will further appear as the to-be-enlightened witness to Archbishop McQuaid’s powerful estate, one part theocracy and one part corporation, in the narrative sequence’s third part. McQuaid’s is a personal fiefdom built on the confiscation of newborns from single moms whose children were then sold—probably put more politely: a donation for our holy work would not be unwelcome to be sure—to middle class families in Ireland, Europe, and North America. 

The starting with desire is important because of that recognition of self in vulnerability to desire—

Somewhere between Lexington and Park
I spot you, ever before our chance encounter
at the Algonquin blossoms to obsession.

Lush with Dry Martinis and Manhattans
we relax into shadows of movement before
ice melts in to the arms of intoxication.

Even if we tend to be more timid or disciplined or wary in the face of opportunity, we all recognize this progression from casual fancy to chance encounter to martini glass ice melted. We also recognize the hidden nag of conscience as the above poem, “Belief in Momentary Lapses,” comes to its end.

Paper boats released from the palms
set sail on the lake at Central Park
while the host is raised skyward in St. Patrick’s.

Fitzgerald’s deft hand sews threads to be tugged from one poem to another across the sections. She does it with images of weather, intoxication, faith and ritual. Not to mention the recurrence of certain words like “palms” in the poems. The host raised in St. Patrick’s is unseen by the person whose hand is releasing paper boats in Central Park, but she knows the Church’s location, the Mass schedule, and the moments of the ritual of Communion. The shadow of it all reaches north and west, to her in the park. It also previews the centrality of the Church to come in the collection.

Desire, its possibilities and disappointments, unites us. In Part II another, perhaps even more universal experience connects us further, familial grief. From “Saudade”:

Geraniums on the windowsill catch
evening photosynthesising, spreads
itself across the body of mahogany
dining room table as if the Atlantic.
Rays light up family photographs
on the mantle like could-be Broadway
icons facing just west of happiness.
So, where does all our love go after
you have gone, back over the mountain
and downhill to the scent of sea.

Faith and politics also come into play here. As does the special wounding that family can do almost without thinking through presence and absence, word and gesture. Both of the poet’s parents pass here, though greater attention is given to the mother’s illness and death. In it, the poet’s mother’s voice comes through and you realize that its echoes were in the first section’s contractions of “and” to “n” and the sardonic wit. “Use candles,” her mother dictates from her death bed, “in that bottom // drawer, John XXIII thrice / blessed, making a bishop // of Tom Ryan back in ’63. / Light them so I will find // my way through d’eye / of the needle, ease tight // squeeze, deaden clamouring / at the gates.” Yes, this woman’s daughter would be aware of the host being lifted in a cathedral a mile away from her postcoital bliss. Unlike her daughter’s, the mother’s faith remains a comfort to her, even as local scandals break regarding a priest who fathered two children. “Women must be to blame sure look at Eve // and the damage she caused with an apple.” 

The complications of family under stress surface: sibling rivalry (“who was loved most // and who loved more, in a home where / a demonstrative hand was slow to show.”), incomplete understandings, an abandoned homestead, migration’s separations, belief’s discrepancies (the damage Eve caused with an apple, indeed—what about the fecking priest’s pecker?). In the wake of deaths, the siblings shatter. The poem “A Great Fall” summarizes, “Was not much / more than twenty // four hours, for us / to come asunder // after our parents left us for holy God.” As we head toward part III, other doubts, too, are raised.

In “Bloodline” comes a recognition and a wondering:

Thing is, we have
the measure
of one and other.

In certain lights you
can see it, like
a doubt questioning

what is known.
That slight resemblance
unmoors balance

suggests rumours
of otherness
for ease of saving face.

Otherness, the opposite of the universal we, us, humans, is introduced. Otherness: other than your parents, your siblings. Otherness: to be taken in with measured/unmeasured love. But, also, otherness: decidedly not us, available for use and abuse, though you may call the latter fair punishment. The first otherness is normal, even in families where there are no real “bloodline” questions. We have ways of feeling different from each other, but it leaves us all human. The other otherness is harder, harsher, excluding. We do not choose to feel it; we are made to feel it. That is coming in part III. Children separated from their single mothers for reason of their sinful origins, brought to life by life’s most basic impulses. The women are others, their motherhood can be erased from their own children’s birth records. Within a faith that knows as a foundational creed that we are all sinners, yet still ostracizes these particular sinners from the family of the faithful, judges them categorically: Eve’s children: recidivists, the fallen. Yet forgives the equally fallen priest, and rationalizes and hides the sins of greed and pride that animate the further sins that follow on them to corrupt not just individuals but the Church as an institution. The archbishop we meet in “What Will Remain” in part II comes to the fore in part III, more for his othering than for his welcoming God’s children to the faith.

Charlie McQuaid is the narrative sequence’s villain. He is, in the words of the section’s first poem’s title, “Eire’s Holy Roman Emperor.” A rich prelate who, from 1940 to 1971, runs Ireland’s Catholic Church like an independent Pope, a CEO of an international business, who “rescues” newborns from their fallen mothers and repurposes them for middle class families in desperate need of children. “His reign reaches beyond Ptolemy’s // foresight becomes the pentimento of Irish weather / systems moving over a landscape that allows no change.” 

Not all children who come into his network are wanted. Some never find homes. If not adopted, the children grew up as free labor, working in one of the archbishop’s side hustles—most notoriously the industrial laundry (“the Swastika Laundry,” with its double ZZ logo) that served hotels and restaurants across Ireland. The work was strenuous, the discipline harsher still, and mass graves were discovered to prove whispered rumors were true and the truth was worse than the darkest rumors. (The book has interesting backmatter, including notes that identify individuals, organizations, slang terms, and other culture-specific items—Lady Laverys, for example, are banknotes—but also a bibliography of sources: books, journals, newspapers, and other media reports on the broad subject of the Irish Church’s abuse of children in its care and the cover up of those abuses.)

Vacant Possession steers clear of much of the worst of the scandal, which is well known, focusing instead on the seizing of the newborn children, the foundational wrong, and takes us on to the poet’s own adult discovery of her origin. One’s own sense of outrage simmers and boils but the author’s doesn’t. It bears relentless witness. 

In “Mrs. Doogan” Fitzgerald writes, 

… Afterwards, for a few quid
more, Doogan leaves Eve’s day-old baby

in Temple Hill. Every All Soul’s, two
hundred Lady Laverys appear in Doogan’s

palm like footed turf, from his Grace
for her to do-good, as she sees fit

with proceeds of two babas bound
for Amerikay…

And from “The Book of Bees,” the mundanity of bookkeeping:

to ecclesiastical ledgers
he commends little

people born
outside matrimony

Church registry ledgers will eventually betray the scheme, and despite efforts of obstruction years after revelation, Fitzgerald, through detective work and relentless petition discovers her own birth mother, whose story is not unlike the book’s beginnings. From “Bellybutton”:

Do you wish
you’d gone

for a backstreet
job above

in Hatch Street,
or not been 

caught off guard
in the first

place. Instead
this secret

birthing house
confines us.

From “False Start”:

I am three hours as the crow flies

undetected for decades. The spit
of you cannot be denied.

Yet truth-drops rub against lies,
aggregates bound by secrecy

hardens as if lime, till I show up
falling through water like stone.

Vacant Possession speaks its testimony precisely, like a naturalist describing life from the field in patient detail and rigorous, demystifying bluntness. Fitzgerald’s field is the past that endures, doesn’t die but echoes, vibrates, and, if ignored, may still undermine like the aftershocks of an earthquake. She gives voice to lost and damaged lives by using—another favorite word of hers—pentimento to reveal not only what remains but what was removed, the ghost of lives meant to be erased. In so doing she reveals the past and its living consequences, where some sins count and are punished and others are discounted, hidden by cassock, institutional pillars, and the accumulated dust of malign neglect. These are beautiful, aching, defiantly moving poems. They work one-by-one and in the aggregated narrative. They speak of tragedy, resilience, love, family, faith, and loss. 

—Reviewer Rick Larios is a reader and occasional writer who lives in Brooklyn with his wife, Cara. He reads because it saved his life as a child growing up on the West Side of Manhattan and he'd be a fool to stop now.




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